Things Can Only Get Better

I've had a pretty shit week if I'm honest with you. One funeral, one anniversary of a friend's death, and the news that another friend was murdered have left me feeling as low as it's possible to feel. There have been days when I didn't even want to get out of bed. I felt like a shadow was hanging over me all the time.

At times like these - as if times like these are normal - I turn to the Holy Trinity of my life: my writing, my art and my garden. The writing is an escape, a respite, the art acts as catharsis, and my garden restores my faith in life, even when I can't believe that faith could ever be restored.

I've written and arted myself to the point of burnout this week - these pictures tell the story of seeds sown and life bursting forth, despite the rain, despite fierce heat, despite high winds and salt air. These pictures tell me that it may not always be great or good or even bearable, but it will get better. Eventually.

 

Let's hope for sunshine, good food and happiness in the coming days.

Comments

[jmcw]

what beautiful plants! this too shall pass

[Trust]

hey georgy girl,

although we don't even know each other from Adam, this post really touched a spot for me, I have had very similar situations in my own life, friends passing, life throwing you through the mud, and I have to say, all the shit slinging ceases to matter when you are at peace with nature in a very real way, people seem to lose touch with this, think it's cliche and whatnot, but I couldn't agree with you more, things will improve for you, every down has an up coming soon, just got to hoof it down the road to the up point...it'll be good, i know it.

-Trust
TWMWK

[Jrld]

Rock on GG! Posted warm and well in the chilly blogosphere.

...at least your garden is having fun! Mine almost died from some minor house-mate neglect.

[Listener Kliph]

My gawd, I have had a tragically similar year.

I was under the impression that all us WFMU posters were doing this from bed. I don't think I would have this gig if I had got out of bed, nuh uh.

[spiele]

Things never remain as they are today. Change is the continuous process so things will also get better as time progresses.

[illlich]

What if all your friends were dead? That's how it feels when you have no friends, and some of us live in that world every day.

[bartleby]

Hang in there, the friends you've lost are still better off for you having known them.

[texas scott]

When you change the way you look at things,the things you look at change.

[rock+creek]

Let's hope for sunshine, good food and happiness in the coming days.

Definitely - I've been in a similar place (and know the "shadow hanging over" feeling well), and have always gotten some comfort from my garden. Take care of yourself, and I hope that you get some peace soon.

[GeorgyGirl]

Thanks to everyone for the lovely comments (although I'm still confused by illich - sending you hugs, sweetie). It's the little things in life that get us through the bad times - yes, it still hurts, but I'm getting there. Hugs to everyone. :)

[illlich]

Sorry, my comment was unnecessary, even if it does accurately represent my recent emotional state. Thanks for the hugs.

The universe is infinite, with an infinite number of possible alternate universes that (according to some mathematical theories) DO actually exist. So our loved ones are alive, somewhere, we just can't be with them. Of course in some of those universes I'm a millionaire with a supermodel girlfriend, a solid gold house and a rocket car. Unfortunately we are stuck in this universe, so I guess we have to make the best of it here.